really shouldnt been updating again so soon and should be spending my time with the books instead but im just bored. mm school today. morning run was good. haha we ran outside for about 20-25 mins.. felt like i shed some of my fats after that. happy. haha morning run again tmr. need to train up the stamina again after not running for like more than a month man. trainings starting soon anyway. cant wait (: oh and to my beloved buadoh!! happy birthday jia!!
mm something happened today that scared me alot and made me think about alot of things. realized that ive really drifted quite alot from God. im plunging into a whirlwind of things and maybe i need to be pulled out. been unconscious of my actions lately and what they mean. started reminiscing on the bus ride home today about the times where He lifted me from the unhappy person that i was and made me feel loved again. and all the times where He was there when no-one else was. ive lost comfort in prayer and been living my carefree and unadulterated life. feel guilty and lost now.. i dont wanna do anything that i might regret or that will go strongly against my religion. garrr. help. i need to get closer to God.
anyway to you: im sorry for the emotional outburst today. at such a wrong timing too. just got scared. which spurred alot of random and wild thoughts. cant really explain how it was la but im really sorry.
im waiting for my mom to come home now with my dinner. im hungry. ROARRR. and no im not growing fat! okay maybe i am but i shall ignore everyones comments and run everything off during morning run tmr. hopefully.
haha enough of this entry. shall go wait patiently for my food. theres one tree hill and of course friends tonight! and OH. angie and faye you guys rock man!! i heard about it. congrats and you guys totally deserve it! happy for both of you :D whoooosh. lovelove. (:
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